Has Your Psoriasis History Ever Repeated Itself?

Philosopher George Santayana is credited with the famous quote, “Those who do not remember the past are condemned to repeat it.” This philosophy supports the idea that historic events and decisions can present again in a cycle of new and updated ways.

I believe this philosophy can always be applied to the psoriasis journey. At least I can apply it to what I'm going through right now. My history with psoriasis is definitely repeating itself right now and not in a good way.

It's important that we all feel less alone

Before I dive too deep into it please know that I am not looking for sympathy. I tell my story so that someone else might read it and feel like they are not alone.

Let me explain to give you a better understanding of what I mean.

The beginning days of my psoriasis journey

My psoriasis journey started 17 years ago and since then, stress has always been my biggest trigger. I cannot express it enough. My life was exploding when I was 33 years old, which is when my psoriasis journey started.

It was one of the most difficult times in my life. I was in the process of divorcing my second husband. On top of that, my uncle who I was really close to, passed away from a heart attack. He was not married so I was the one helping my grandparents to settle his estate. Stressed out was an understatement.

My first patch of plaque psoriasis came popping out. It started on my left leg. This one patch exploded into more and more. Like a wildfire that could not be put out, it spread all over my body.

I was 80% covered by the time it finally stopped spreading. At the time, all my doctors wanted to do was prescribe topicals which did nothing. I was miserable.

A grief-stricken psoriasis flare

17 years ago, I thought that time was going to break me, honestly. Somehow, I made it through it. This past week has now been topped as the most stressful time in my life. What happened in the past pales in comparison.

I lost my mother this past week. Like my dear uncle, my mother had a heart attack. On top of that, she also had double pneumonia. She drove her own self to the hospital. Sadly things took a turn for the worse. She passed away.

My psoriasis is flaring so badly now. I have three active and painful plaque psoriasis areas. They are red and incredibly inflamed. The worse one is on my left ankle. It has already started spreading.

How bad will it get is the question I keep asking myself. That day she passed was so devastating. We have not even had her service yet which will add even more stress. More stress equals more flares.

My history and story are still ongoing

As I said, I am really not looking for sympathy. I am writing what I feel. It's therapeutic for me. Will the flare get me back to being 80% covered? It is crazy to think that this is how my journey started. In my brain, it truly feels that history is repeating itself.

My history and story are still ongoing. I know I will survive it like before. It just really got me thinking and wondering if anyone else has had their psoriasis journey repeat.

If so will you please be willing to share so that I will know I am not alone. Right now, I just have so much going on in my head. It will be nice to know someone else has had their psoriasis history repeat.