New Spot on the Block

New Spot on the Block

Running my fingers over my skin and I feel a bump. Wait. Stop. It cannot be. I have never had a spot of psoriasis on my hands, not one. This winter, I got five on my hands inside and out. Sometimes I swear this skin of mine has its own personality and as we do it too, my skin feels the need to grow and go find itself. One would think that when you have psoriasis that the one more spot, is just that, one more spot. Somehow every time when a new area is affected it hits me like a battle-ax. As if psoriasis has not claimed enough of my body, now this. I feel defeated all over again and start questioning everything I am using and or doing/not doing. It could easily drive my mind to the brink of madness.

Here comes the full-on flare

When I was first diagnosed It was just my arms, on the top of my wrist. I recall thinking to myself, mmm okay so this is not too bad, I mean it is not great, it could, however, be a lot worse. Now, if I did not know better I would think that my immune system took this as a challenge.  Not too long from then, a new spot came higher up on my arms and before I could blink my eyes, both my arms were covered in spots upon spots of red circles. My legs were a few weeks later – top to bottom, My scalp got the message late and was sure to arrive with a bang. For a long time that was all I had and I managed to accept it and start moving on with my life.

Not just the arms and legs

Fast forward a few years and I was pregnant with my first and so far my only child. Now I am not too sure if my psoriasis took this as a challenge or if it was feeling neglected. My oh my, next on the list was my nails, I was devastated. I had always had such pride in my nails; I was blessed with good genes in this department and was always so happy with my nails. That was ended very quickly and 5 years later I am still trying to get to the bottom of this. My current strategy is gel nail polish and keeping them short enough to be sure they will not rip off.

Waiting for the symmetrical patch to arrive

Last, but not least, to add to the party came all the other body parts, and yes I mean all of them. Over the years there is only one part that has not had an outbreak, which is under my feet. Somehow every time this happened and continues to happen. I am taken aback, shocked and pretty upset about, it hurts and takes me back to a place I do not particularly care to revisit in my mind. A place filled with hurt and a sense of hopelessness when in the thick of this disease. Through all of this every time I manage to accept the new addition to the family and wait for the symmetrical patch to arrive. Yes, I am blessed to have symmetry in my skin, one this side and one that side, a form of balance I guess. It is the strangest thing really knowing that the other one is coming, almost as if it is not complete without the other one.

How do you deal with the new arrivals? Do they also upset you so, or have you managed to find a way to not have it affect you so? If you have, Please share this with me.

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  • Barbara
    2 months ago

    I know how this feels. I discovered by happenstance that diet quelled my psoriasis by about 80 percent. It’s an inflammatory disease, we know that. I believe you will have great success with a low inflammatory diet. Basically that means get processed foods out of your diet, particularly white products like rice flour and sugar. I noticed now that if I eat sugar, within about 12 hours I get a flare up again. If I stop eating the sweets, I see a decrease in about another 12 or 24 hours. It’s happened to me again and again. The correlation is undeniable. It’s not correlation, it’s cause–sugar is the major cause!

  • Clair G moderator author
    2 months ago

    @barbara, Thank you for this! I will certainly have a look in to it again. I am so glad that you have found something that works for you! – Clair

  • Susan63
    3 months ago

    I have Palmoplantar psoriasis. Any kind of psoriasis is uncomfortable and unpleasant ( I’m using the appropriate language on the site), but losing the ability to walk because my feet are bleeding and ripped up really has an impact. I feel like this disease has taken so much of me and the life I had before I got sick.
    I miss running and hiking the most, wonderful stress busters. I’m 50 pounds over my pre psoriasis weight. I’m happy to say I am losing . My onset was age 50 after stepping in raw sewage at a patient’s home. I was a nurse for 29 years. Her septic tank failed. I had a tiny pimple that progressed into a huge absess. My doctor didn’t culture the would and the antibiotics weren’t effective.
    My first diagnosis was Sjogrens disease, then lupus, and finally psoriatic arthritis and psoriasis after a biopsy. I had no idea what I was in for!
    That was 6 years ago in December. After trying so many different medications and topical steroids, I was lucky enough to find something that works for me.
    I’m not cured, there isn’t one available yet. I hope the future holds one for this miserable disease.
    In the past I was read anything I could get my hands on to educate myself. I spent money foolishly on so called “cures”. It’s a real shame that there are people who will take advantage of someone who is desperate to find relief.
    I remember the positive, happy posts people with psoriasis would write. I thought there was something wrong with me. Of course I knew that some people had no feet or hands. And yes, I am and was grateful that I wasn’t an amputee. But, I won’t deny there were times when I had no skin on my feet because I had a reaction to a stong medication that I cried to my husband and said I want my feet chopped off! Pain and constant itching and bleeding and twisted toes will make you say things you don’t mean. Getting back to the happy, positive, big smile faces that confused me. This person is going to the gym? Going on a cruise? It wasn’t until I learned more about psoriasis and the different types and how much people were impacted by the disease.
    I will also admit it bothered me when I saw almost daily posts from people who had one spot on their elbow. I would think, why is this person even on the site posting? I later learned that there are some good people out there who have had success with a treatment and stay in touch to help others newly diagnosed.
    I’m happy today. I can’t go runn

  • Susan63
    3 months ago

    I wasn’t fin

  • Clair G moderator author
    2 months ago

    @susan63, seems you got cut off while you were still typing. I would love to hear the rest. -Clair

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